The first!

First blog entry......way too many times I find myself with too much on my mind and most of which I want to say out loud; and yes...most of the time I end up saying the wrong thing! Imagine this.....a hamster on a wheel going nonstop twenty-four hours a day seven days a week! That's how my life is! Insane huh? Well.....I am not going to change any part of my life! I call it my sanity....my sanctuary, my balance.....it is my life. Once my mom said to me....."Brian I don't see how you have good sense at the end of the day because of all that you have to deal with in a given day....."....truth of the matter is I don't have good sense! I look at life like this.....sometimes it gets so cloudy and piled up much like the dust on the dining room table. You have a choice....either work yourself to death keeping the dust off or you be creative and doodle in the dust! I am too old to work that much and I am way too creative just to sit and feel sorry for myself!

Nothing new is really going on in life right now. The girls are doing well. Haylie is back in therapy and seems to be doing really well. Hope is growing up way too fast.....man sometimes it is like I am having a conversation with a twenty year old! I am very proud of both of my girls. A close friend of mine gave me a book for Haylie to read....I don't recall the name of the book but it is directed toward young women to help them boost their self image and help them to understand basic issues which most young women have to face. One night after I gave the book to Haylie, she came to me and said...."Daddy, I don't think this book is meant for me to read...." and I ask her why then she replied....."well, right here it ask a question 'how do you feel about your breasts?'" so I ask Haylie...."well, answer the question. How do you feel about them?" and she said "I DON'T LIKE THEM!" HAHA! So I ask her why and she said....."because they are too big!" So there ya go Haylie....that is your answer!

I learned some disturbing news this afternoon.....a friend from school named Tammy found out that her cancer is back. I don't really know the details....but the person telling me followed this up with "and she is pregnant too"....wow, talk about when it rains it pours! I couldn't imagine what her family must be going through......

Ok, this is going to be a short blog. I took a b12 shot tonight and I have way too much energy to be sitting here! Plus I have chicken to marinate, clothes to fold, podcasts to catch up on, scrubs to iron.....oh yeah....it is going to be a long night!